ghostsforglory
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Hi, I am 32 yrs old male, 6ft tall.
I've done ok in terms of money and physique, I make 6 figures net income and have a great muscular physique from lifting weights for the last 14 yrs but never had any girlfriend. I started seeing escorts from an early age and it became a habit ever since.
I don't socialise too much but I go to the gym every week, go to restaurants every week and go to salsa/bachata classes sometimes. I have talked to some girls in supermarkets and got couple numbers but they all ghost, I don't go to bars or clubs and online dating obviously doesn't work for me. On top of this I work from home so have very little social contact. Never having been in any relationship gets me down a lot. I don't get any results with online dating despite being 6ft tall with great physique. I think this is because I am not white, I'm asian and am only attracted to white women. All the escorts I have slept with over the yrs have been white women.
I also never had sex with any women that are not escorts my whole life, I don't go to bars and clubs and don't drink. With online dating never getting me any results this negatively affects my self esteem. Money and muscles are supposed to improve confidence but when you have these things and think that you will never get into any relationship even with these things it makes me feel very angry and hopeless.
Meanwhile I see men that don't even have these things and are short, etc in relationships. Feels like I am living in a parallel universe, many escorts have called me attractive over the yrs but I don't know what to think anymore. Nowadays when I go to the gym I wonder why I am even going when it never got me anywhere with getting girls. I just continue to do it as I enjoy it and have done it all my life and I like maintaining my physique. It has become part of my identity, just like making 6 figure income has become part of my identity.
Seems like I am never going to get into any relationship and best I can hope for is to become a sugar daddy down the line and just buy women for long term arrangements. Is something that affects my mental health a lot and makes me feel sad most days. At the same time even if I was in a relationship I don't really think I would enjoy spending too much time with women other than for having sex and for social validation.
I've done ok in terms of money and physique, I make 6 figures net income and have a great muscular physique from lifting weights for the last 14 yrs but never had any girlfriend. I started seeing escorts from an early age and it became a habit ever since.
I don't socialise too much but I go to the gym every week, go to restaurants every week and go to salsa/bachata classes sometimes. I have talked to some girls in supermarkets and got couple numbers but they all ghost, I don't go to bars or clubs and online dating obviously doesn't work for me. On top of this I work from home so have very little social contact. Never having been in any relationship gets me down a lot. I don't get any results with online dating despite being 6ft tall with great physique. I think this is because I am not white, I'm asian and am only attracted to white women. All the escorts I have slept with over the yrs have been white women.
I also never had sex with any women that are not escorts my whole life, I don't go to bars and clubs and don't drink. With online dating never getting me any results this negatively affects my self esteem. Money and muscles are supposed to improve confidence but when you have these things and think that you will never get into any relationship even with these things it makes me feel very angry and hopeless.
Meanwhile I see men that don't even have these things and are short, etc in relationships. Feels like I am living in a parallel universe, many escorts have called me attractive over the yrs but I don't know what to think anymore. Nowadays when I go to the gym I wonder why I am even going when it never got me anywhere with getting girls. I just continue to do it as I enjoy it and have done it all my life and I like maintaining my physique. It has become part of my identity, just like making 6 figure income has become part of my identity.
Seems like I am never going to get into any relationship and best I can hope for is to become a sugar daddy down the line and just buy women for long term arrangements. Is something that affects my mental health a lot and makes me feel sad most days. At the same time even if I was in a relationship I don't really think I would enjoy spending too much time with women other than for having sex and for social validation.
