throwaway2001
Member
R0tt3nV1rg1n from adult chat here again.
I know my reputation is not the cleanest. But I want to tell you that I'm wanting to improve myself. This time I want to stay in line better than before.
If I vent or make a dark joke I'll think twice before posting it in main. I may not be able to give you anything but my word and I have no reason to lie. I just want a second chance. I miss chatting with the friends I've made.
I've poured my heart out to the admin who banned me for the second time now and have again been met with refusal to communicate on why I feel I should be unbanned and given at least one more chance.
I was banned for venting. Yes I know I said something I shouldn't have but please understand where I'm coming from. The person I vented about had caused me damage for almost two decades via verbal and mental abuse. He's said and done things that have hurt me so very deeply. I feel like if you were in my shoes you'd understand. I am also too small and weak to fatally harm someone the way I said. The threat was purely empty.
On the subject of self improvement I will once again mention that I suffer from mental health issues that I have said I want to get help for and I would be getting right now if not for current circumstances in my life that I have little to no control over. So it almost feels like I am being discriminated against for being mentally ill which doesn't feel good at all.
but still I'm trying to to take the most responsibly of my wrongful actions as I can. I just want my account back so I won't feel the need bother anyone like this anymore.
I'm sorry. I really am sorry. I mean it.
I know my reputation is not the cleanest. But I want to tell you that I'm wanting to improve myself. This time I want to stay in line better than before.
If I vent or make a dark joke I'll think twice before posting it in main. I may not be able to give you anything but my word and I have no reason to lie. I just want a second chance. I miss chatting with the friends I've made.
I've poured my heart out to the admin who banned me for the second time now and have again been met with refusal to communicate on why I feel I should be unbanned and given at least one more chance.
I was banned for venting. Yes I know I said something I shouldn't have but please understand where I'm coming from. The person I vented about had caused me damage for almost two decades via verbal and mental abuse. He's said and done things that have hurt me so very deeply. I feel like if you were in my shoes you'd understand. I am also too small and weak to fatally harm someone the way I said. The threat was purely empty.
On the subject of self improvement I will once again mention that I suffer from mental health issues that I have said I want to get help for and I would be getting right now if not for current circumstances in my life that I have little to no control over. So it almost feels like I am being discriminated against for being mentally ill which doesn't feel good at all.
but still I'm trying to to take the most responsibly of my wrongful actions as I can. I just want my account back so I won't feel the need bother anyone like this anymore.
I'm sorry. I really am sorry. I mean it.
