I hope that everyone is doing alright. Lately I've found myself battling some really intense hatred towards myself, especially when it comes to my relationships even though I've talked to people who've said I've done nothing wrong. I don't have many people in real life and no matter where I look the people I do end up meeting hurt me very badly, by ghosting me or not giving the same amount I'm giving and unfortunately it always comes back to me wondering if there's something about me that people just don't like or get. I'm starting to shut down in general, even distancing myself from people I love because I'm scared. There's only so many different forms of heartache a girl can handle at once. How do I get out of this?